It's never easy when it comes to this. Exalting dreams that don't exist.
Unbidden in the face of truth, forgiveness remains unknown.
I see the monster in your eyes. Put to death by silent cries.
In the hollow of your absence, the world is just a stone.
A requiem for the memories. A simple man with a sick man's dreams.
Inside the twisted realm of sleep, the darkness holds me down.
Your face haunts me like a plague. The ceaseless gift of an open grave.
Your shovel smile digs me apart like my heart was the ground.
Your poison lips and deadly kiss. Stop my heart with paralysis.
In the ruthless clutches of your love, my mind has no control.
I'm just a child that's been abused. Beaten to tears with the thoughts of you.
Sentenced to these endless dreams in the prison of my soul.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Sure to Fade
When I'm gone, they'll trail my blood back to you. But if you mingle with pretty people, promise me you'll say good things and spit in the faces of my enemies.
Just hold yourself responsible for the murder of my smile.
Even though we danced so carelessly in the meadow of our youth, we've become our parents now, cracking our heads on the stones of truth. Our motives used to favor fairy tales.
The book of happy endings that closed inside our hearts. I held your hand to my mouth and kissed my life away.
Raise your glass to us my dear and toast to the tragedy. The ever burning fire that prevails over the world it ruins, staining its wonders forever.
For all that remains unchanged, SMILE WITH ACCEPTANCE. And from the bodies of our beliefs rise the ghosts of forbidden dreams.
Keep me as a teenager alive in your recollection. Look upon the disaster we shared as the miles grow between us.
But rewrite the story in your head and face the pain that's sure to fade. Fill in the blanks with the hearts of heroes that can endure the fires of time.
Remember me close to you. Remember young, smiling and original. Unfaded by the loss of you and the adamant winds of change.
Just hold yourself responsible for the murder of my smile.
Even though we danced so carelessly in the meadow of our youth, we've become our parents now, cracking our heads on the stones of truth. Our motives used to favor fairy tales.
The book of happy endings that closed inside our hearts. I held your hand to my mouth and kissed my life away.
Raise your glass to us my dear and toast to the tragedy. The ever burning fire that prevails over the world it ruins, staining its wonders forever.
For all that remains unchanged, SMILE WITH ACCEPTANCE. And from the bodies of our beliefs rise the ghosts of forbidden dreams.
Keep me as a teenager alive in your recollection. Look upon the disaster we shared as the miles grow between us.
But rewrite the story in your head and face the pain that's sure to fade. Fill in the blanks with the hearts of heroes that can endure the fires of time.
Remember me close to you. Remember young, smiling and original. Unfaded by the loss of you and the adamant winds of change.
The Shadow of You
Slowly chasing your deceptions. Kindly making my confessions.
Dark glasses and bold intentions.
Your life flashed before my eyes. Each moment was no surprise.
Your face was always my paradise.
Little did you know, I was on my knees.
Hoping and praying you would notice me.
Leaving me breathless just wondering.
Let me live in your shadow.
Behind all the commotion.
Glance my way every now and again
and reward my devotion.
When my world ends,
just carry on without me.
Visit the places we used to go
and say you miss me proudly.
Let me live on through scattered wishes.
Let me live on inside your dreams.
Let me live on with secret kisses.
Let me live on behind the scenes.
I'll be the angel on your shoulder.
But as the world grows a little colder,
I'll become the devil in your ear.
I'll whisper soft and seductive everything you once trusted.
Until you ask yourself how did we make it here.
At a steady pace, my heart erased,
All the things pretty turned so deadly.
Forget me not, my pulse will drop.
Breathe in heavy, wait I'm not ready.
But it's way too late. I'm dead already.
Let me live on inside your smile.
Let me live on through your eyes.
Let me live on chained to your heart.
Let me live on behind your cries.
Your shadow claims the breath in me.
But, your absence is the death of me.
Let me live here, in the shade where I belong.
Let me live. Just let me live on.
Dark glasses and bold intentions.
Your life flashed before my eyes. Each moment was no surprise.
Your face was always my paradise.
Little did you know, I was on my knees.
Hoping and praying you would notice me.
Leaving me breathless just wondering.
Let me live in your shadow.
Behind all the commotion.
Glance my way every now and again
and reward my devotion.
When my world ends,
just carry on without me.
Visit the places we used to go
and say you miss me proudly.
Let me live on through scattered wishes.
Let me live on inside your dreams.
Let me live on with secret kisses.
Let me live on behind the scenes.
I'll be the angel on your shoulder.
But as the world grows a little colder,
I'll become the devil in your ear.
I'll whisper soft and seductive everything you once trusted.
Until you ask yourself how did we make it here.
At a steady pace, my heart erased,
All the things pretty turned so deadly.
Forget me not, my pulse will drop.
Breathe in heavy, wait I'm not ready.
But it's way too late. I'm dead already.
Let me live on inside your smile.
Let me live on through your eyes.
Let me live on chained to your heart.
Let me live on behind your cries.
Your shadow claims the breath in me.
But, your absence is the death of me.
Let me live here, in the shade where I belong.
Let me live. Just let me live on.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Tears in Text Messages
If this heart would settle for compromise, I'd find the reasons in your eyes...to stay.
But the world just isn't ours this time, only fear runs through our minds...this way.
Only you and I can make this work, not the devil or his friends.
Hold me now before it's over and just pray this never ends.
I'm sorry if I let you down. My hands just let you drown.
I can't remember what made me this way.
I'm awful and I know this now. I was the one who tore us down.
I just hope it's not too late to change.
Before the world takes off again, I'll find a way to make amends...with you.
If I'm not ready to comprehend that you are truly my best friend...I lose.
Swallow pride like bullets now, I will take in all the pain.
When I'm down and out, my love, don't remember me this way.
I'm sorry if I made you cry. I hate it when you say good-bye.
I'm not the person that I used to be.
I'm killing off all my dreams. I'll prove to you before we sleep.
The monster here will be the death of me.
You always smile right on time, bring these memories to mind...I know.
Tears and texts that coincide, messages that pierce my spine...just go.
I never wanted anything more, just you and your heart.
Of all the pieces I am now, you are the strongest part.
So walk away if you must, void of love, void of trust.
Just don't pretend to leave for the sake of me.
If you still feel something real, something true you can't reveal.
Come back again and empty your heart on me.
But the world just isn't ours this time, only fear runs through our minds...this way.
Only you and I can make this work, not the devil or his friends.
Hold me now before it's over and just pray this never ends.
I'm sorry if I let you down. My hands just let you drown.
I can't remember what made me this way.
I'm awful and I know this now. I was the one who tore us down.
I just hope it's not too late to change.
Before the world takes off again, I'll find a way to make amends...with you.
If I'm not ready to comprehend that you are truly my best friend...I lose.
Swallow pride like bullets now, I will take in all the pain.
When I'm down and out, my love, don't remember me this way.
I'm sorry if I made you cry. I hate it when you say good-bye.
I'm not the person that I used to be.
I'm killing off all my dreams. I'll prove to you before we sleep.
The monster here will be the death of me.
You always smile right on time, bring these memories to mind...I know.
Tears and texts that coincide, messages that pierce my spine...just go.
I never wanted anything more, just you and your heart.
Of all the pieces I am now, you are the strongest part.
So walk away if you must, void of love, void of trust.
Just don't pretend to leave for the sake of me.
If you still feel something real, something true you can't reveal.
Come back again and empty your heart on me.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Familiar Red
I can't stand the way I fall right on my face, inches away from another open grave.
I know all I want seems so far out of reach. I'm just glad my arms grow longer every time I bleed. Slipping into loneliness makes me feel just like a bitch. So, I'll scream until my lungs collapse and wear this like a stitch.
As I leave my shadow behind, my heart fills up inside. Fall away like the walls of a past that's filled with lies. You can chase my pulse around with judging blades for me. But, I will only suffer for the vindicated me. Any attempt to impede these steps will be taken in light stride, conquering your facade by shading the bright side.
These scars came from living, and the end of innocence. My ways of forgiving are worse than a consequence. I beat myself up enough as my heart and mind go to war. How can I be frightened by anyone or anything anymore? I am my own worst enemy with daily mental beatings. Only I can train myself to learn from all the bleeding.
Today I discovered what it means to really swallow pride. It's a metaphorical razor blade dicing your insides. But, then it's over, you take a breath, and review your decision. A redesigned outlook at the cost of internal incisions. Not everything is what you thought, it is never white and black. It is red, red, red--like a heart beating through your back.
...and so I listen to the call of the soldier in my chest. I've left him stranded once before and ignored all his requests. But, now the tone of the memories, as sung by somber voices, leaves me questioning the subtleties behind those quiet noises. How much have I missed, and how can I get it again? How did all my dreams go up in flames in the end?
He says, "Don't worry old friend, you will have it again. Those scars resemble dreams still sleeping in your head. You have prevailed in ways that you still fail to see. Listen to the humble side and enjoy what you've achieved. You must have patience and courage for the dreams you still crave. With all your might and no control, you will wake up in a grave."
Another day to fight. Another day to win. Let my heart lead the way. Let my life begin.
I know all I want seems so far out of reach. I'm just glad my arms grow longer every time I bleed. Slipping into loneliness makes me feel just like a bitch. So, I'll scream until my lungs collapse and wear this like a stitch.
As I leave my shadow behind, my heart fills up inside. Fall away like the walls of a past that's filled with lies. You can chase my pulse around with judging blades for me. But, I will only suffer for the vindicated me. Any attempt to impede these steps will be taken in light stride, conquering your facade by shading the bright side.
These scars came from living, and the end of innocence. My ways of forgiving are worse than a consequence. I beat myself up enough as my heart and mind go to war. How can I be frightened by anyone or anything anymore? I am my own worst enemy with daily mental beatings. Only I can train myself to learn from all the bleeding.
Today I discovered what it means to really swallow pride. It's a metaphorical razor blade dicing your insides. But, then it's over, you take a breath, and review your decision. A redesigned outlook at the cost of internal incisions. Not everything is what you thought, it is never white and black. It is red, red, red--like a heart beating through your back.
...and so I listen to the call of the soldier in my chest. I've left him stranded once before and ignored all his requests. But, now the tone of the memories, as sung by somber voices, leaves me questioning the subtleties behind those quiet noises. How much have I missed, and how can I get it again? How did all my dreams go up in flames in the end?
He says, "Don't worry old friend, you will have it again. Those scars resemble dreams still sleeping in your head. You have prevailed in ways that you still fail to see. Listen to the humble side and enjoy what you've achieved. You must have patience and courage for the dreams you still crave. With all your might and no control, you will wake up in a grave."
Another day to fight. Another day to win. Let my heart lead the way. Let my life begin.
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