Murder All You Love

I'm too proud to say I miss you

But I'll never drop the issue

Parts of me long to kiss you

until the sanity in me collapses

But I can't rewrite your diary

My fears are uninspiring

No matter what I try to be

I'll always be dead chapters

You will never know my aches

I will never share my scars

I can barely face your memory

How can I repair your heart?

So hate me now until the end

I know you love to condescend

Just don't pretend we're still friends

If you ever cared for me at all

you'd never look my way again.

Into the end with open wounds

Pretty roses with hearts of doom

They slit our binding stems in two

now I'm dying all alone

My words become my suicide

Self-destructive and idle lies

Spoken in vain and idolized

and etched into my bones.

My excuses are so vague

I will never tell you I still care

Your smile invokes regretful tears

But that's my secret cross to bear.

So hate me for the things you know

Just don't pretend that there's still hope

I know you love to be in control

But you can't control the things you love

So hate me enough to let me go.